Healing my relationship with Mother Nature with ART

Hello dear Artists! I hope you are giving your art-making at least 20 minutes daily to get strength for this time in human history. Here’s mine from today.
Today as I was working on this I realized that my relationship with nature, being outside and animals was injured as a young child of maybe 6 or 7 when I witnessed a dog attack. The dog attacking a woman was mine, my own dog, and I couldn’t stop him, even though I tried and he was not big but a medium size dog. He went crazy like I had never seen before. Luckily my grandfather heard the screams and was able to stop the attack and take the dog away. I use to love my dog and had lots of cute memories of him as a tiny puppy, drinking from a tiny plate and sliding backwards on the polished floors. After the attack the woman had injuries in her hands and arms and I saw my grandma helping, cleaning tending to the bites. I felt that I didn’t really know my dog. I felt that dogs and all animals could not be really know by me. I became afraid of dogs and suspicious of all animals. Also because the attack happened outside in an area of trees, I became afraid of nature areas where dogs could be running off leash.
I’m 50 years old today and I have been working on these fears on and off with some success. Now I’m able to be in nature areas like parks and even feel relaxed and happy. I also am able to pet and like small dogs and cats. I’m still afraid of big dogs, even clearly Sweet ones because at some level I feel that they could get triggered like my dog did all those years ago. I am working on that. But only now I’m realizing that the reason why I paint women in nature might be because I am trying to heal an injury in that most sacred relationship of myself and Mother Nature in all her representations.... earlier I had written that woman in nature meant Radical Self Acceptance and Harmony with the present moment regardless of its complexity. Given that I am a part of nature, trusting nature means trusting me and my capacity. Being a Trustworthy Organisms as Carl Rogers would describe it.
Thanks for reading this insight about my art impulses. 🙏❤️